Been constantly reminding myself that this blog is not for rants but for stuff that is supposed to be a product of my creative juices. Yet here I am again, composing another entry that can be labeled as nonsense complaining and ranting. But I guess this is therapeutic for me, so move on I will and care I won't. I want this one straight to the point, so I will try to make a list.

1. Everybody's different. I am different. You are different. But sometimes I can be EXTRA-different. I rarely talk or socialize. But it doesn't necessarily mean that you can consider me a freak. Neither I'm an anti-social. It's just that I don't want to talk a lot. Why can't some people understand that I don't want to be in any group or be associated with this people in the office. Wanting to be alone doesn't necessarily mean I am lonely.

2. How I wish I can be free as other people are. Go away and just LIVE. I hope it is as simple as taking a bath.

3. The first two are kinda hazy. So I will try again to be direct.
The truth is:
I want to go to Manila and pursue THAT dream but I CANNOT.
Don't worry it's not about joining Pinoy Big Brother.
I've told around two people about it but they don't care. I know nobody cares because this is my dream anyway. But all I want is somebody telling me that I am doing the right thing. That it is worth the risk and I am not gonna regret pursuing THAT dream. I am not happy and TO LEAVE for me means TO LIVE.

This situation I am stuck with right now is like being programmed to do this and do that. I have lost contact. I bloghop here and there but I don't leave traces. No comments left or even a simple "hi" in chatboxes. Full of negative energy, I don't want to transmit it to people who write beautiful verses.

What's my name again?