Not being able to write something decent for
almost a month means only one thing: burnout.
The last time I remember posting something
is that kinky poem in Sulong erotica.
And then I just hit rock bottom,
allowing myself to just float around in my
self-made snow globe.

Just when I thought I was already safe,
Fate decided to teach me a lesson.
That not everything I want
would be given to me unless I really work hard for it.
I have to admit that I am used to
excelling on things that I choose to venture into.
Sometimes I even surprise myself.
I don't have problems at work regarding my performance,
while co-agents are struggling.
I was even promoted twice.
I got a slot in the free NCLEX scholarship
back in nursing school,
which I declined(that would be another story).
And some other "just-my-luck"� moments
that I thought were just trivial stuff back then.
I didn't do anything,
it just so happened that I was there
and they offered an extra slice of the cake.
Who am I to say no?
Yes, those things to me were effortless.
I didn't pray nor wish for it
but it was given to me.
And I am grateful.

And here comes a beautiful lady called Fate.
I don't know what I did.
I may have stepped on an
ancient burial ground perhaps,
cursed the gods or offended a higher being
but 2008 was not a breezy year for me.
To be fair with, it kicked off well
and then Summer came.
That is how it all started.
I fought and did not gave in.
I am not sure if I put up a good fight
but all resources have been exhausted.
A month ago, I was holding onto my last fort
but she wanted me to let go of it as well.
A disagreement with my direct supervisor ensued,
followed by a haywire in my performance.
Being used to things going just fine at work,
I was for the first time one of the struggling agents.
After 2 years in the industry.

Thus, the snow globe was made.
Something so fragile that any minute from now,
it might just crack under pressure.
2009 just started 2 days ago and what the?!
Let a thousand snow globes crack and break,
I am now ready to go through those shards of glass.
Even if it means going barefoot through them.